Sunday, March 05, 2006

He had a burden to share

He told me he wanted to develop his personality. I told him he could. He wanted to pour out. A burdened soul - one among the so many who carry around a baggage which they don't know how to offload.
I told him he could come to the guest house. And you know what he did.
Well to be precise here was a man - in the words of the Bible - who had known many 'men'.
He was girlish, stinking, with unkempt hair but with a smile on his face. Well you know what I have begun to realize you need to tread on thorns to really smile.
He had wanted love. His parents could not give him that. He was alone. He had longed so much for it that when one did come, he had no issues
The only thing he didn't know was that he had a seen a mirage - yes a mirage!
He chased it. He chased it hard with long hours on the net and an exciting appointment schedule. He wanted to so much to take revenge when he sought his mirage.

He was pouring out and I knew grace had finally caught him. The hound of heaven had found him. I felt really sad when he said, 'I can't look at a woman the same way normal men do. I need another man. I simply can't marry.'

He was surprised when I told him his quench for love will be satisfied. I told him that the Hound of Heaven would not leave him. The one who said,'You are mine' will not leave him. I knew that.

One soul could rejoice. The Hound had found him.

Isn't it clear now, my friend, that the line between what is true and untrue is so very thin? So, so very thin?

the heart

A heart which is true compels you to the truth.

Sometimes life affords very few choices

I was returning after visiting my recently discovered long-lost relatives. They had treated me to a Parish festival meal - duck's meat, pork, fish and what have you. I hadn't done the usual routine in the morning as sometimes my bowels give up on me, especially when I am travelling. I left the place by bus and was to take another bus from this place to Trivandrum. Well this time my tummy started demanding release. Well you can't anything else but obey. I got down from the bus, searched for a place to offload, however, none was available but one run by the Kerala state tourism department - the only western toilet in that place - and that too without a toilet cover! Now I took cover and took off searching for a good hotel. In the meanwhile my stomach was sounding a constant SOS. I walked to the receptionist and asked for the toilet - a western one. To tell you honestly, I was prepared to pay anything for a good ride. I asked for a room. I said I would pay for use. You know what the answer was? No!!!

He showed me another toilet - an Indian one - having no options left, I chose it. You know at times life affords very few choices. It cannot afford many choices. Money loses it value then. Status and achievement lose their value. Nothing at all can afford you a fair chance.
I felt it now. Yes, I felt it now! It had happened two thousand years ago! Yes, Yes! I have felt it today. A truth rediscovered!

Christ didn't have many chances two thousand years ago, when his parents when knocking about doors for a proper place to give him birth. Mother Mary too had 'a tummy upset'. Well, he was born in a manger - the only choice available. He has always known this truth. At times life affords very few choices - very few. He was wiser. Our true brother. He could have used his power. He had used it at other times. Why not now? He allowed himself to be bound by human circumstances. He chose to surrender to God's will in his life - to live like a his brothers, to be affected by the same circumstances; allowing himself to hear a no, to be treated without any privileges; no preferential treatment, no VIP seats. He knew the truth of life. Sometimes life affords very few choices.

Even if you are a Manager, a very rich man, a very powerful man or even a very spiritual man - you know at times life can afford very few choices. Learn to hear a no - and the next time you hear one to smile and walk away.

So cast of your worries of saving for a rainy day, your worries to avoid a that embarrasing moment - no matter what you do sometimes life afforts very few choices. Like it or ... no just like it. Trust me you'll be a lot more freer.